9 September, 2017
Hello, my name is (insert name here) and I’m (insert age here) years old. I find that I have a lot of free time now that I’m in college. I’ve been struggling to find ways to fill that time and nothing really seems to stick. I’ve tried going for bike rides, running, playing guitar, reading, going to fitness classes, and smoking weed. Weed is the only thing that has stuck and while that isn’t necessarily a bad thing, I don’t think that it is going to be helpful for my future.
I’ve tried writing before and I think that because I don’t really like talking about myself I find it hard to put thoughts into words. Anyways I think I’m going to try and write down stuff in my free time. I’m not quite sure what I’m gonna write about but I’m sure I’ll come up with something, or give up, who knows yet.
I really want to lose the fat on my stomach and I’ve been focused on it for years. I think about what the food I’m going to eat is going to do to me after I eat it constantly. Unfortunately, because I have so much free time I usually fill it by eating. So I’ve tried to at least eat healthier if I can’t stop eating so much. Who knows if that will help but it’s worth a shot.
Ever since I broke up with (insert girlfriend here), I’ve been in a weird place. I miss her a lot but thankfully I don’t think about her that much, except in my, wait for it, free time. I reached out to her the other day to see how she was enjoying it in (insert University here), and it went well. I don’t really know what I want from the conversation but I definitely can’t go back to being friends with her yet. I think the worst part of the situation is that I want so badly to move on and find another girlfriend but I rarely speak to people unless they speak to me first, I’ve given up on tinder and don’t even bother responding to the girls that I match with, I’ve turned my friends with benefits into me selling her weed and her selling me alcohol. It’s not that I don’t want to be with her, I just haven’t been in the mood to hook up with anyone. I just want someone to hang out with me and just make me feel something again.